LIFE BEFORE THE FIRE
My brother Nial drives me insane, I am the youngest and he is the oldest and for some unknown reason he seems to think I am some sort of threat to him, competition, probably because I have something he just has not been able to get. We hate each other with a passion!!!!!
There he is sat on the couch making out with the third different girl this week - I really don''t know what they see in him!!!! All these girls that he brings home from school, they all know what he is, they know they won''t get any commitment out of him - so why?? - its not like he is some sex god or anything, there are way better looking boys at our school - so what does Nial have that makes these girls want to fall stupidly for him, when they know he will be messing about with somebody else tomorrow!!??
My brother Nial drives me insane, I am the youngest and he is the oldest and for some unknown reason he seems to think I am some sort of threat to him, competition, probably because I have something he just has not been able to get. We hate each other with a passion!!!!!
There he is sat on the couch making out with the third different girl this week - I really don''t know what they see in him!!!! All these girls that he brings home from school, they all know what he is, they know they won''t get any commitment out of him - so why?? - its not like he is some sex god or anything, there are way better looking boys at our school - so what does Nial have that makes these girls want to fall stupidly for him, when they know he will be messing about with somebody else tomorrow!!??
So I should have known that there would be trouble brewing when I keep having Violet round our house.
Nial thinks any female is game - even MY girlfriend!!!!
If you were any sort of brother you just wouldn't do that would you - go after your brothers girlfriend - well mine did!!!!
Violet had stayed over on Friday night and in the morning while she was eating breakfast Nial started.
Violet made the mistake of getting up to take her bowl to the sink, walking past Nial, that's when he grabbed her.
"What iss all the yelling about you two?" I asked
I have never been a naughty boy, I was a spoilt boy - I was the baby in our family, so I was the one who got away with murder!!! Technically you would say I was not the baby - Noah was, as out of us two twins I was the first one born, but Noah was never like me, he was quiet and reserved, shy, sit him down with a toy and he would be happy to stay there playing, he would not budge content in his little world. Where as I was everywhere, into everything, never still for more than a minute, very curious and full of life. I was classed as cheeky and cute and different to all my other siblings with the awful genetic combination of my Mothers skin colouring and my Dads hair and eye colouring. I stood out and got everyone's attention. I was the one that had to be watched because if there was mischief to be had, I would find it!!! My personality and look overshadowed Noah and the poor kid never got a look in!!
Nial thinks any female is game - even MY girlfriend!!!!
If you were any sort of brother you just wouldn't do that would you - go after your brothers girlfriend - well mine did!!!!
Violet had stayed over on Friday night and in the morning while she was eating breakfast Nial started.
"So come on then Vi, when are you going to let me take you out?"
"I've told you already I am not!!" she replied"Come on Vi, you won't regret it"
"No thanks Nial, I'm quite happy with Neo thanks"
"I am surprised at you - you can do way better than Neo?"
"And how do you work that out"
"Come here and I'll show you"
"Get lot Nial!!"Violet made the mistake of getting up to take her bowl to the sink, walking past Nial, that's when he grabbed her.
"What iss all the yelling about you two?" I asked
"Oh nothing your girlfriend just hurt her toe, kicked the chair as she walked past, didn't you Vi"
"LIAR!!!"
"WHAT was all the yelling about Nial???"
"He tried to kiss me and he has been hassling me for weeks every time your back is turned" Violet blurted out then ran into the bathroom crying"YOU DID WHAT???!!!"
"She needs to lighten up - she is frigid!!"
"YOUR KIDDING ME RIGHT!!!"
"Its only a matter of time Neo I am doing you a favour!!"
"WHAT!!"
"Well come on - you can't pull the fittest girl at our school and expect to keep her - your dreaming!!"
"Your the one dreaming, she is not frigid - get it through your thick skull she is telling you NO - OOPS somebody said NO to the stud - how dare she turn you down!!!!!!!" I said sarcastically"Ha ha you are so funny!!"
"I am right aren't I Vi has dented your ego!!!!"
"I am warning you KEEP your filthy hands OFF Violet!!"
"We'll see!" Nial said laughing"NO we won't see - YOU WILL keep away from Violet!!!!"
I was so angry with him I could have killed him right there and then. He was so full of himself, he could not see how he hurts people - his own brother and he could not care a shit as long as he got what he wanted, another notch on his bedpost!!!I have never been a naughty boy, I was a spoilt boy - I was the baby in our family, so I was the one who got away with murder!!! Technically you would say I was not the baby - Noah was, as out of us two twins I was the first one born, but Noah was never like me, he was quiet and reserved, shy, sit him down with a toy and he would be happy to stay there playing, he would not budge content in his little world. Where as I was everywhere, into everything, never still for more than a minute, very curious and full of life. I was classed as cheeky and cute and different to all my other siblings with the awful genetic combination of my Mothers skin colouring and my Dads hair and eye colouring. I stood out and got everyone's attention. I was the one that had to be watched because if there was mischief to be had, I would find it!!! My personality and look overshadowed Noah and the poor kid never got a look in!!
You think I am sat here by choice doing my homework, no, for the hundredth time I have to be reminded by one of my parents to get my homework done. I quickly learnt that I could push the boundary out further than any of my brothers and sisters would even dare to. Plain and simple I was spoilt, and most of the time I got away with doing things that I really should have been shouted at for - much to the disgust of my brothers and sisters who would probably have been read the riot act and grounded for a week if they had done the same thing that I had just done and gotten away with.
As I got older I used to do things just to see how far I could actually push my parents to see what would make them shout at me. It might sound a little stupid to you but it is actually no fun being the spoilt child when all of your brothers and sisters aren't and they start to resent you for it. I wanted my parents to shout at me, so my brothers and sisters would stop being so resentful and stop calling me names - I actually wanted them to treat me in the same way. It is no fun to be singled out and treated differently to the rest. I looked different, I was treated differently - this really was no fun for me!! Just look at me - a face only a mother could love!!! How come I was the only one out of my brothers and sisters to turn out looking like a chocolate orange??!!
My Dad was the one that was the hardest one to get shouting and he really had to be pushed to shout at me!! I never did work out why, me sneaking off to the dance club under age and getting absolutely paralletic never provoked the reaction I had hoped for!! My Uncle Max has spotted me sat at the bar wabbling on my bar stool, and he had dragged me home by the colar of my jacket. Uncle Max was furious and gave me a lecture all the way home. That is what I hoped my Dad would do. Instead he just stood there and laughed, because he was laughing I was laughing, my head was merrily swimming I couldn't help it!!
"You think its funny what you have just done don't you??" Dad said
"No Dad I ...." I said
"Well get to bed, you wont find it so funny when you get up in the morning with a banging headache, go on scoot!!"
That was my telling off!!
Now if Nial or one of the girls had done what I had just done, he would have rared at them for hours, just like my Uncle Max had at me, but even worse!!!
The one and only time my Dad did actually lose it with me and shouted at me properly, was purely accidental on my behalf - it was not something I had provoked or even meant to do. Finally I found something that tilted him to snap - and I hated every minute of it!!!
I had been round at Violets and curfew was getting close and kissing her goodbye took a lot longer than it should have done, a lot longer than I even realised it had. So when I did finally leave her house it was well after curfew time and I did not even realise.
I had not even got off her driveway and set foot on the pavement when a patrol car slowed up and stopped and the police man got out.
"Son do you know what time it is?" he asked me
"errr No sir" I said to him
"Well its way after curfew you are going to have to come with me"
Great!!!!!!!!
The next thing I know I am bundled into the patrol car and he has my name and address and I am heading home in a police car, an experience I really did not want to repeat.
My Dad was out front waiting for me, he had been phoned and told that I had been picked up and was being brought home in a patrol car. Dad was really not impressed at all!!! In fact that was the very first time he had looked at me in total fury and the first time he absolutely exploded with rage and gave me the first good telling off of my life.
He screamed and shouted at me and when he finally started to calm down he asked me where I had been.
"I am sorry I was at Violets and we did not realise the time"
"Well if you can not be responsible enough to watch the time, maybe you are not responsible enough to have a girlfriend just yet, maybe you should stop seeing her till you finish school"
That was it I just exploded. there was no way he was stopping me from seeing Violet, he could have said anything and I would have taken it, but where Violet was concerned I became unhinged and we ended up standing in the street screaming and shouting at each other and I said some really awful things to him that I really did not mean. He gave me another round of telling off told me I was grounded till I left school and stormed of inside in a fowl mood. I had never seen him this angry before!!! For days afterwards we did not speak, he just cut me an awful look every time he passed me and I did the same.
This was the last time I spoke to my Dad, I can never undo the things that I said to him, I can never tell him I am sorry and that I did not mean what I said - I think he died thinking that I hated him and I could never put it right because only days later the fire took him away from me never giving me the chance to say I was sorry!!
In fact, my last memories of all of my family members who died in the fire was not good.
My Mom, what can I say about my Mom, to be honest, I hardly knew her!!! When me and Noah started school she got herself a job at the stadium on the sports team. Mom started work as we finished school, and by the time she came home we were in bed. The only time we really saw her was on her days off work which was twice a week. Dad worked mornings and was always there for when when we got out of school and so I was always a lot closer to my Dad than my Mom. Now I am really regretting not getting to know her better.
Nicole and Naomi, we got on ok but I did not really spend that much time with either of them. They spent alot of their time together and away from everyone else. Naomi had the loner trait which meant she prefered her own company and Nicole being a bookworm always had her head stuck in a book, so most of the time they were hauled up in their room Nicole reading, Naomi on the computer doing what they did. Now I regret not spending more time with them!!
My Mom, what can I say about my Mom, to be honest, I hardly knew her!!! When me and Noah started school she got herself a job at the stadium on the sports team. Mom started work as we finished school, and by the time she came home we were in bed. The only time we really saw her was on her days off work which was twice a week. Dad worked mornings and was always there for when when we got out of school and so I was always a lot closer to my Dad than my Mom. Now I am really regretting not getting to know her better.
Nicole and Naomi, we got on ok but I did not really spend that much time with either of them. They spent alot of their time together and away from everyone else. Naomi had the loner trait which meant she prefered her own company and Nicole being a bookworm always had her head stuck in a book, so most of the time they were hauled up in their room Nicole reading, Naomi on the computer doing what they did. Now I regret not spending more time with them!!
Noah, like Dad, the last words I spoke to him were not nice ones either!! After school on that fateful day, I had plans and Noah was having none of it!!!
"Come on Noah, Vi and Shantel are expecting us" I spoke quietly knowing Dad was at the computer
That was the last thing I said to him before I took off alone to violets house
I had only been there an hour when my phone rang it was Nat, I thought she was about to tell me I had been busted for sneaking out while I was grounded.
"Neo you have to come home , there's a fire" she shouted crazily down the phone at me
As soon as I got home I could see people hanging around on the front, I could see the fire engine and I could smell the smoke. When I got into the house I just followed the screams up to the girls bedroom where Nial and Natasha were.
"Where is everyone?" I asked
"Everyone went in there" Natasha said pointing at her bedroom
The doorway was blocked by fire, none of us three could get in and none of them could get out.
When the fire fighters eventually put out the fire, we never expected to find everyone gone - nobody came out of the fire alive. Mom, Dad, Noah, Nicole and Naomi all gone!!!!!
All that was left was the three of us.
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Chapter 3
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"Come on Noah, Vi and Shantel are expecting us" I spoke quietly knowing Dad was at the computer
"Your grounded remember!!"
"Like I am taking any notice of that!!" I said"No Neo, Dad grounded you, I am not going and neither are you, tell him Nat please!!"
"He's right Neo, you are grounded"
"And what is he going to do if he finds out I have been out - ground me some more??!! I am sick of you Noah, your nothing but a wuss!!!"
That was the last thing I said to him before I took off alone to violets house
"Where is Noah"
"He was too chicken to come and I am the one who is grounded Shantel not him!!"
Shantel was pretty disappointed. Shantel and Noah were both very shy and actually were very alike and would have suited each other, we had been trying for weeks to get the pair of them together, Shantel really liked Noah but Noah was just being Noah.I had only been there an hour when my phone rang it was Nat, I thought she was about to tell me I had been busted for sneaking out while I was grounded.
"Neo you have to come home , there's a fire" she shouted crazily down the phone at me
"Yeah yeah - is this your plan to get be back before Dad realises I am out"
"No Neo pleeeeeease I am not joking - I don't know what to do"
I could hear she was crying, then I heard somebody screamingAs soon as I got home I could see people hanging around on the front, I could see the fire engine and I could smell the smoke. When I got into the house I just followed the screams up to the girls bedroom where Nial and Natasha were.
"Where is everyone?" I asked
"Everyone went in there" Natasha said pointing at her bedroom
The doorway was blocked by fire, none of us three could get in and none of them could get out.
When the fire fighters eventually put out the fire, we never expected to find everyone gone - nobody came out of the fire alive. Mom, Dad, Noah, Nicole and Naomi all gone!!!!!
All that was left was the three of us.
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Chapter 3
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